I believe it is a manifestation of the ambivalence so many have toward quitting. I usually refer to it as too incompatible wants. 1) We want to be normal drinkers and 2) We want to avoid the negative consequences of our drinking. The first want is pure fantasy which has no factual evidence to support it - it would be an irrational choice. The second want is based on our actual experience and has plenty of supporting evidence - it would be a rational choice.
Unfortunately, my experience is that during active addiction and early sobriety, the first want triggers the stronger emotional response along with now obsolete memories of how good drinking used to be. So, yes, it is your AV.