I'm annoyed with myself for replying like that as I have become a lot more objective about that situation since I quit drinking.
But its been 4 years of hell for me which are still ongoing here. I can't have a relationship with someone like that, I'm under enough stress as it is.
I need to heal from all of this somehow. I'm far from there yet, its going to take time. It might never happen but this is no way to live