Ok you are right, popular is not the right word here either. I'm the same as you in that, and Justin. Totally guarded almost always. Particularly the past many years.
And yeah, since I got sober some of the things I look back at that I was doing or sharing or interested in makes no sense whatsoever, I had no clue what I was at.
I kinda felt the same about a mix I did when I was drinking a lot. I was chuffed as it was the first I had done in years, actually it wasn't great now looking back and it was a bit demented as well.
That was probably what I liked about it then. Yeah i'm not surprised not many people liked it, I probably wasn't happy at the time though.
That might be more similar to your experience recently. But not to worry
