Hello all:
I didn't post my 10 month mark because I was traveling back that day and then I thought it was to late to post for that mark but then I thought of how much pleasure I get from the encouragement I get here so I thought I would just post my number of days. So: I have 10.5 months and I feel grew about it. I still have booze dreams and AV pops up but when that happens I use all my tools learned here.
My family is going through a hard patch. My FIL has been diagnosed with a serious illness and we just had a death in the family. I am dealing with all of this sober. I was just thinking that I haven't thrown up in10.5 months. Before, I threw up every time I drank (always the next day, DTs). Before I would also always gag when I brushed my teeth. None of that anymore.
I recently went on a "girls night" and one of my drunk friends told me she wished I would drink again... I just kept quiet. I wish for world peace...
I have also reached out a little bit here. I have sent friend requests to those here that I recognize. I am not getting complacent and I am remaining involved here. This place is like my AA meeting. I kid you not. I read here EVERY day! It's working, working great.
I didn't say this before but in my vacay I held a drink during a toast. Just held it and didn't take a sip. It wasn't hard and I felt empowered. I know it's a little cowardly but I didn't want to have those conversations at the party, it wasn't the time or place. I just wanted to fit in and mesh with the crowd. Playing with fire? I guess it was a controlled burn
Thanks for everything guys. All of you "strangers" have helped me more in this journey that the people that love me the most and for this I am greatful. This place has made a real difference in my life. Can't wait to post for my 11 months!
I'm so happy about being sober. It hasn't been easy but it has been worth it!