Hello and welcome. I am also a mother of Almost 4-year-old. I was a binge drink her. I wouldn't drink that often but when I did most of the time it was on. I blacked out drunk and horrible things have happened to me while passed out, so ever putting ourselves in that position is really stupid. I also decided to quit drinking because I couldn't be the mother I wanted to be to my little girl. Being hungover and having to take care of the kid is terrible. I would suggest that you read a lot here. It has really helped me. I do not go to AA meetings but I do use some AVRT methods. I also come to SR almost every day. I do not post that often, but I read all the time and I find that it really helps. Then, whenever I need to vent I know that SR is there for me.
We can make our lives what we want them to be.
Welcome to the fam.