Hi Frosty, and welcome. You will find a lot of encouragement and support here. Sounds to me like you suffer from what a lot of us do....inability to moderate. I know that I absolutely cannot take the first drink because 1 always turns into 20. Accepting that drinking is just no longer an option for me is what is making all the difference.
I'm glad you're here! Keep posting and read around the boards. It helps.