Hey Smilax,
Everyone respects each other's personal beliefs here, and support is unconditional. So say what you need to say man.
If you want to become a researcher, mathmetician, or physicist, it's never too late to pursue your dreams. 32 is just a number that places you in a demographic. It does not define what you are allowed to do with your life.
Just start setting small incremental goals and decide what action to take. We're behind you all the way.
Keep your head up brother