So Lance, you want to be where you were 71 days ago? Just asking because your post sounds like my alcoholic voice...lying to me about how drinking was.
I mean you can if you want too. No one is stopping you. Go ahead, have a drink or two, if you want. But it sure does seem the last 70 days have been good for you? Things are better? Not saying things have ben perfect, but better than 70 days ago, right?
If being sober these last 2 plus months is really worse than when you stopped, well, go ahead and go back there if you want. Be a damn shame to give up on your goal now.
Seems you have lost what it is like to be a drunk, and you need to remember my friend. It is an ugly place or you would have have never needed to stop.
Find your first post here, and then think about things, and then decide your plans.