Thank you Honey!
This part:
Now I am alone. And I must face who I am, what I choose, what I do, and who I want to become without the buffer of someone else deflecting my true reflection away from me. It is an honest although lonely and difficult place to be. I am coming to believe it is the place of salvation.
gives me chills every single time I've read it. It was EXACTLY like that for me, like I not only HAD awareness all of a sudden, but finally understood the true definition of awareness as well, in order to see how dim my perspective had been before. (if that makes sense?)