Hang in there jim, it does get better, and the mind becomes clearer. It really doesn't take very long to let go of the thoughts we had while using.
But it does take time, so keep posting here because we all understand the struggles of not only changing habits, but changing our mindset... especially when it comes to how we view others, and for me at least, how I viewed myself in this world.
My saving grace has been realizing that being under the influence has skewed my perceptions, and that it is ok to be confused for a bit. And most importantly that it doesn't matter. I answer to myself, no one else. If I am ok with how I live, I am ok with how others live theres.