The hiding it is a real big red flag. I, like a lot of other people here, hid it too. I felt I needed to protect my loved ones from seeing how much booze I needed or wanted. And I was also very selfish in that I wanted my own stash that no one could touch. This is alcoholic behavior for sure. Also I think your bored because you really just want to drink. Once you stop you'll find other ways to spend your time wisely. Good luck.