Why is it so hard to move on
My AH and I are separated. I believe he is dating someone in NA (a big loser who lost custody of her children).
Until he finds a job and can pay for daycare, he comes over every morning to take care of our young children and leaves after I return from work. We seldom talk and if we do it's only about the boys. Except for yesterday he called me a liar and self-centered which I thought describes him perfectly and not myself. I hate seeing him every weekday but I don't have the funds to pay for daycare by myself.
I have noticed that the few times he is nice towards me is b/c he is going and doing something and lying about it.
I'm not sure if he is using however he is looking at a lot of porn sites and real low class dating/hooking up sites so that could be one of his new things.
Even after ALL of this, I am so hurt and it just consumes me. Deep down, I know I deserve better but I just can't seem to get over my AH.
Since we have young kids I don't have time to do a lot of things for myself but I do journal and that helps.
Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Just want to be happy again.