Im here guys, I have tears pouring non stop. I just want to see my little girl, she gives me strength and optimism. Im sinking in the negative feelings and thoughts.
I put effort in recovery but as soon as I start feeling good couple of weeks or months later (recently weeks) back at it again for 1-2 days then suffer. But every time symptoms get so much worse.
I cant do rehab, no cash, will also loose job and screw up my family. Closest AA meeting is 100km away.