Very similar development here over time! I was a restless, endlessly curious, wandering free spirit when younger. Then came the period of heavy drinking that anesthetized progression, or at least the conscious awareness of it, quite effectively. I realized that it wasn't truly stalling, I just did not deal with it much, but things were still happening. Right now I'm at a stage when I feel a bit torn between freedom and flexibility, trying more new things vs. commitments, stability, and taking care of the same responsibilities in long term. When I'm in a bad mood, I say I don't know which lifestyle I like better or want to develop further. I've always liked planning and being decisive though, even when very young. What you are saying is really the solution I think: a balanced, healthy compromise. The self-descipline is exactly what I know I need and am looking for the best ways to exercise long-term.
Thanks, your comment was helpful
