Congrats on eight days. That first week can be really hard. Good new is, you never have to have a first week again. It is up to you. Not drinking does not make life easy, but it is a lot easier then trying to figure it out with a drunk brain. I too had a rough child hood and first marriage. Thank God I also had some wonderful times too. No one promises life will be easy, but good things are happening all around us, and when we are sober we are better able to handle the bad. I feel blessed that I am sober, and nothing in life can not be made worse by drinking through it. Keep up the good work,