Thank you~ My oldest son will be coming with me to pick him up from hospital. After his release, I will not pick him up from jail. My counselor mentioned that I was doing well, and it is a process to let go, even if it takes a few years. I just could not believe that my son was so, so sick. He was drinking hand sanitizer, and vanilla. Nitro balloons. Now, I am ready to surrender. Whether he dies, or not, I can't control. I love reading "Today A Better Way." And having this site.