The fim "Flight" with Denzel Washington
I watched a film in December before I stopped drinking, called Flight, starring Denzel Washington as a Pilot, who miraculously lands a plane saving almost all the passenger in an impossible landing. He did this while drunk and the film is around him coming to terms with being an alcoholic and finally concludes where he is in a meeting in jail and he says "I just couldnt tell another lie..."
I found the film difficult to watch at the time, a little to close to the truth, but I have just watched it again this afternoon and very well acted, but it made me realise that there is a part of you, that just gives up when your drinking. A part of you that wants to get outed and caught.
Its like a inner part of your soul is screaming from inside to the world, saying Help and some people are able to listen and stop or try to stop, while other pass away.
I strongly recommend this film to anyone.