Thank you so much guys.
I actually have a pile of fun projects, hobbies I want to try, books to read, etc
Just nothing seems interesting right now.
I did go for a little walk to the post office. I avoided the grocery store...I don't feel strong enough to go there today.
The walk wasn't really nice, it's snowing...but I'm hoping the fresh air helps.
During my walk I was thinking about all the goals that I set for this new year. Not resolutions, but things I want to accomplish, things that I couldn't do last year while struggling with alcohol. And it feels overwhelming.
Maybe that's the main reason why I'm feeling so "blah"...I am scared that I won't be able to do any of those things sober...maybe my list is too long, it feels really overwhelming...so I'd rather go and lock myself in my dark bedroom and sleep...does it make sense?