patricia68

I thought that after the Holidays I would feel better, more "normal", less stressed out.

This week everybody went back to work/school and I am feeling depressed. All I want to do is lay in bed, be left alone and sleep.

I am not physically well either, I can't stop feeling nauseous and very tired.

I know it will pass, it has to lift at some point...but I am struggling. I feel like I am on survival mode until I can go back to bed at night.

And AV that keeps telling me "You quit alcohol for this?"

BernieE

How long have you been sober? I'd suggest discussing these symptoms with your doctor and fully disclosing you history with alcohol. Hope you feel better soon!

Aiko

Patricia it will get better...
Do not hear that AV that is tryingto drag you back in the hole, it will say anything!!!

You need to plan everyday...
Need to have tasks everyday.
Make a list of thing you always pospone Now, and start tiking from tomorrow.
But you really need to join clubs, learn something you always liked,
concentrate on living not on alcohol.
Join a Gym, knitting classes, danceclassess, help in a charity........
The less you do the worse your head will get!

Hope you will find better soon and stay strong the storm will pass!

Fly N Buy

YES! It will and you'll gain some strength in knowing that feelings do pass!
That was a huge key for me early on. Kept a close eye on how I felt every second, minute - hour - day

One day soon, you'll awake with a smile. You'll know you can do this and life - even through trials and strife, is sooo much better.

Keep posting, glad you're here !

Soberwolf

Hi Patricia it will get better have you spoke to a dr recently ?

lean on us for support ignore your AV

SoberLeigh

There are quite a few bugs going around, patricia68.

I have known a few people in my life who suffered from a post-Holiday, post celebration, post 'attainment of goal' letdown/depression. They always seemed to have to have 'something on their radar' to be satisfied; maybe it was a dissatisfaction in or of the 'present'.

I, too, quite often struggled to embrace the 'now'; with sobriety it has become easier!to do so . . . . . or is it that 'embracing the now' has made sobriety easier and so satisfying?

Rooting for you, patricia68.

Have you spoken with your doctor.

Shimmering

Just want to say I can really relate to this. Hope you feel better soon!!

Kaily

i can relate to that 100%

Sitting here wondering exactly why I am doing this as just making me miserable, foggy depressed!

jryan19982

How many days sober are you? The first two weeks or so are the toughest by far. After that it starts to get easier. Anxiety and depression plays a huge role in these early days as your brain chemistry is trying to right itself after years of abuse due to alcohol, drugs etc... Its ok. We all know your pain and know given time it will get better. You just have to battle and get through it. You can do it. And if you put your mind to it you WILL.

doggonecarl

No, you didn't quit to feel like crap sober. You quit for this:

"I am scared. I am a mom to a beautiful 6 year old boy, I am married to a very good man...I need to get my life together!"
--from your first post to SR

It's bug season. You might have come down with something. See your doc.

newhope01

I can relate to your post as well.

I called in sick yesterday because I just couldn't bear to face one of the tasks I was assigned. I work with the public and some of them are desperate need of help and it can be so draining on me.

So, I chose to sleep all day and peruse sober recovery.. I remember thinking I need to start taking my depression seriously or this is going to get out of hand again. The one good thing about my depression is that I have absolutely no desire to drink when I feel like this. All I want to do is sleep.

Dragged myself into work today and dealt with a nasty client.. its just so draining here.. My goal today is to try and get myself back into the gym or even just go for a short walk could be nice. Gotta break that routine, ya know?

patricia68

Thank you so much guys.

I actually have a pile of fun projects, hobbies I want to try, books to read, etc
Just nothing seems interesting right now.

I did go for a little walk to the post office. I avoided the grocery store...I don't feel strong enough to go there today.
The walk wasn't really nice, it's snowing...but I'm hoping the fresh air helps.

During my walk I was thinking about all the goals that I set for this new year. Not resolutions, but things I want to accomplish, things that I couldn't do last year while struggling with alcohol. And it feels overwhelming.

Maybe that's the main reason why I'm feeling so "blah"...I am scared that I won't be able to do any of those things sober...maybe my list is too long, it feels really overwhelming...so I'd rather go and lock myself in my dark bedroom and sleep...does it make sense?

doggonecarl

Make sobriety your number one goal. Everything else you accomplish will be a bonus.

mns1

patricia I went through something similar recently. For a couple weeks, I had no interest in doing anything. Literally. I just wanted to sleep. I looked for every possible thing I could to blame my seemingly depressed state on. Especially the dreary weather. But one day I decided to just get up and start doing things. Anything. Cleaning the house, organizing my room. And eventually the feeling started to pass.

And I think that it's great that you are setting goals for yourself. If you feel overwhelmed by them then just start small. Tackle one goal at a time or break them into smaller goals that add up to one big goal.

More power to you!

patricia68

Wow Carl, thank you for taking the time to find this. I've come a long way since that very first post...

My little boy is 7 now, and much happier I can tell...thank you

doggonecarl

Wonderful. And you deserve happier too!

Soberpotamus

Patricia, I can relate well There are many goals I'd like to accomplish this year and I feel overwhelmed when I think about it. I sometimes force myself to face the day.

It helps me to pick something and do it for just five minutes. Then, tomorrow I do it fives minutes, maybe six. Every winter I get out of the habit of daily exercise due to the cold and SAD, so I work my way back into things gently.

Hang in there...

ru12

Hi Patty,

It gets better. I promise. If sobriety was misery I would have never stayed sober. Try to stay in the moment, one breath at a time.

patricia68

I love it! Thank you!

ScottFromWI

So make a list of the things you want to get done- write them down. And just do ONE at a time. You can then cross them off the list. Think of how satisfied you will feel when you look back at all you have accomplished.