Newlife, I completely relate to the escaping to get drunk due to thinking your husband has cheated. I do that too. I'm only on day two here, but I think about what I'm going to do about those feelings because they are there. I feel I need to begin to trust what my husband says and give it to God. I NEED to stay sober and do what's right. For me and my five little ones, so even if hub isn't being true at least I'm taking care of me. This is what I have to say to the alcoholic voice in me when it says I need to drink to cope with the suspicion of husband cheating. I hope this makes sense and will help you . I understand completely and just wanted you to know you're not alone. Blessings, Jolie