Hello Gabrielle,
Welcome to SR. You can come and go as you like. You are the only one who can decide if you have a "problem." You will find a lot of support in this place. I can only state that alcohol is progressive for anyone with a problem. An alcoholic needs to abstain due to allergy and obsession. Check things out here. We hope you find what you're looking for. Glad you found us.
God's Peace,
Kris