Originally Posted by
leharris111 
It does suck! I want SO badly to be normal and be able to be a moderation drinker, but deep
Down I know that's not possible for me so giving it up completely is my only option. Have you checked out the rational recovery site? I liked it and it was relieving to hear that we can choose to be recovered right now...
I tried so many times like you leharris. Telling myself , ok I'll only drink on weekends or I'll only drink 4 days a week.... None of it worked and I continued to drink wine mostly every night ( a bottle) and every morning hate myself and say ...this is it, I'm done. It's not healthy! (What kind of role model am I to my kids?)
But by late afternoon I had already justified I can have wine again that night. I finally admitted to myself, I can't control my drinking and I'm an alcoholic. I wish I was one of the occasional normal drinkers, but I'm not. So, day 4 here i come! Happy to have you all to talk with.