Hi there, I understand feeling like you just can't go to inpatient because of your children. But speaking as a mother who did go into inpatient while separated from my husband, it was scary but the best thing for me and them. I'm much more present in their lives.
Coming home from work and hurrying them to bed and getting nasty if they didn't cooperate so that I could drink. Getting drunk in the middle of the day and passing out on the weekends.
All that is gone now. It's scary thinking of leaving them but honestly, I don't think I was too very far from someone reporting me and then I wouldn't have them with me anyway. It's well worth it if you can do it.
Hang in there. I never tried hypnosis. I did acupuncture. It didn't work. Sobriety takes work and isn't "cured" with a magic pill, potion or procedure. You said your child's father has a progressive disease. So do you if you're an alcoholic. Just as potentially deadly. No cure but infinitely treatable. Good luck. And hugs.