Lost
Ive yelled at him so much he's done. I suck for letting myself get that way. Ive turned into a monster. And it's as if, to him, I never stuck by him this last year. Ive lost myself. I wish a plane would drop on me. I feel totally worthless. Im sorry this is a stupid post. But I cant stop crying and I have problems with feeling suicidal. How can someone who made me feel so amazingly special also make me feel like this? Im an idiot and im damaged. I hate myself. I'm sorry.