Wow!!! Came back to my phone and found all these replies, gave me a lump in my throat.
I was rationalizing with myself saying well if I do go out then I won't drink tonight.
What if I do want a drink then just one or two and just one shot ?
I have been able to go a few weeks without a drink before but then the cycle starts again where I have a bottle of wine every other night .
So four days ago I decided enough, no more alcohol.
It has been very hard over New Years and I will miss the party but I know it's for my own good moving forward.
Thank you so very much for all your replies, it is much appreciated, am going to take it hour by hour.