I'm sorry you messed up. It's hard early on but you fine tune your plan to stay sober. And you need a plan. You don't need a girlfriend. Girlfriends aren't plans. They are people and they are not responsible for making sure you stay sober. I tried that with guys. It doesn't work. I needed to get comfortable with myself before any relationship could work.
Keep posting on here. Reach out in real life. Make those connections and you will be less lonely.