Originally Posted by
BeBetterforkids 
.....if I don't have a plan for every evening , then I fall apart and my addiction takes over.
Fixed your post.
Your mind is posting here. Your mind is fully aware that you have a problem with alcohol. Your
addiction has other plans.
I have a voice in my head that tells me
I should try drinking again. I need to drink to feel better. I can control it this time. It's the voice of my addiction to alcohol.
It's a liar and a thief. It steals the man who wants to be a great Dad and replaces him with a guy who passes out on the couch or under the coffee table. I quit taking advice from a known liar and I got to be who I wanted to be again. I highly recommend it.