Christmas completed
After spending most of Christmas Day miserable, missing my ex (first Christmas with the kids but without him), I got some texts from him in the evening saying his parents were driving him mad, his mum drinking, his Dad not happy & he was so full of dinner he 'only' managed 2 cans (on the back of a hangover from Xmas eve drinking & mixed with antidepressants - am hardly inclined to hang out the bunting!)- and I realised I had had a nice, quiet Christmas with my parents & children, I didn't have to deal with his drinking, with being the designated driver and sitting sober in his parents house for hours whilst him & his mum drink and drink and drink & shout at me and call me miserable when I eventually try to take the children home.
Suddenly realise I'm not actually missing out on anything & this split is what has to happen for us to have a better life. Roll on Boxing Day :-)