I hear you Whitewing. Not strange at all and I used to feel the same. But now this anger is much stronger than any I felt before and it is not welcome. Having felt total heartache and despair as well, I'm not quite sure which is the lesser of two evils. I would like to feel indifferent about the whole thing!! Tonight I had dinner with a friend of mine and she was telling me about a couple of guys she met online and has either gone out with or is still chatting with. I am so jaded right now I thought they all sounded like lying sacks of sh*t lol.