I can relate. Relapsed on Friday night until Saturday afternoon. Pain misery regrets and fear this morning . Thankful to be starting Day 2.
I had three years then moved to a new city and released the first month. I've been struggling off and on for the 10 months trying to get my recovery back on solid ground. I know where it leads and have been three before . Scared I won't be able to get back before something really bad happens.
Praying every day for willingness and freedom from self.
Found Sober a Recovery yesterday and this is my first post. Glad I'm here. Hoping this will help .