Thank you all so much for your support. I'm in tears here, knowing that I've reached an important place in my life and that I finally need to sort myself out. No more excuses or attempts to reduce my alcohol use. It's just so reassuring to know that I'm not alone. I'll try to hook up with an AA meeting as well. I feel better equipped for getting through but I'll keep trying to take it one day at a time.
Thank you, I only hope I can offer others the same support.