Try to stay strong, jayman, and keep your head focused on your goals.
It must be especially difficult to strive for sobriety while your wife is still drinking heavily; I feel for you.
While today may not be totally awesome, it can still have some truly awesome parts. Try to focus on the fact that, with each passing minute and hour, you are gaining strength and regaining health and becoming the person you want to be.
Above, you are giving your child a sober parent. That is awesome every single moment.