Alcoholism is our reality and cannot be put behind us. We can, however, leave our drinking behind and move forward to Recovery. Recovery takes effort, commitment and, in my mind, a very solid plan.
You mentioned going to a meeting. AA could be your plan but it will take effort and commitment - getting a sponsor and working the steps.
There are other methods, many of which are addressed in the link below:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...r-connections/
Hope you close to SR; post often; we are solidly in your corner.