struggling
so I let myself forget that I had a problem. I had a good start. 89 days then I drank. Of course it wasn't the one drink I told myself. Since then I have drank on and off. SO ashamed, mad, sad, and hating myself. Will I ever get this right? Probably going to check out meetings. I've been to one and it was ok.. My problem is I just want to put it all behind me and me and move on but then I forget that I have a problem and listen to the AV. I'm just so bummed right now. Can't even say this is day 1 because I woke up in a panic at 3 a.m and drank the last 2 beers. Pathetic I know. Praying for strength in this. Thanks for listening