SkaterDude, I never saw a doctor either, and for me it was a huge mistake.
It is in your best interests to find a doctor in your area who had experience working with alcohol problems and. Get an appointment. Be honest with that person. They are not there to shame you or judge you. Rather, they will most likely greatly help you to build another part of your recovery.
one of te most difficult things about this for me was learning to be honest with both myself and othet people and learning that other people were there to help me. I say through years and years of anxiety because I couldn't be honest with myself.
You can do this!