Welcome to SR and thank you for such an honest post. Stick around and read and post because there is a lot of support here. Alcohol can numb anxiety for short period of time but then it actually can leave you more anxious afterwards. Anxiety is no fun to deal with. Are you able to see a doctor and/or a therapist as those may be good steps toward long term relief. Quitting drinking may also do a lot to alleviate your anxiety even if it worsens before it gets better.