Lots of Anxiety
I signed up here to learn more about my problem with alcohol from others. I am not sure how to deal with it, but my drinking is hurting my family most (among other things) and I need to do something. I have developed an issue with anxiety so I use alcohol to relax. I also have trouble sleeping so I drink to "sleep". I plan my day around drinking, from what I am going to do when I'm hungover, and when I will have my next drink. I go out of my way to get more alcohol when I run out. I kept justifying my drinking to my wife but its been long enough now she is over it. I went to AA for a week, about a year ago, but didn't make an honest effort to stop drinking.
I need to stop drinking today. I have lots of anxiety about not drinking tonight. Maybe I should go to an AA meeting. Maybe I should open up to my wife (I read someone else did this); I know she is supportive. Anything but pick up a bottle.