Thanks Ruby...that makes sense. To my knowledge no one in my FOO ever sought treatment for their addictions. So you are right, I guess that makes me different in that regard. I have attached a stigma to the idea of addiction. I know I shouldn't, but I have seen the horrific damage it has done to me (both as an addict myself and the child of an alcoholic) and others...so that is where the emotional baggage gets pulled out and opened up. Intellectually, I know addiction is a disease like any other. The behaviors resulting from the addiction are what makes it so hard to accept.