Thanks...
For me acceptance means "knowing" on the deepest level that I cannot drink like non-alcoholic people can and accepting that if I try to do so, I will fail. I don't seem to be able to wrap my head around that. I don't want the label of alcoholic. It really bugs me. That word is loaded (no pun intended) for me. I come from a highly dysfunctional family of origin (FOO) fraught with drug and alcohol abuse. I fought many years to "be different" and apart from that, but it caught up with me. I am what I fear I would become. So, accepting that frightens me for some reason. I feel I need to reject that fact about myself. And in so doing, I think I will consistently think I can drink normally. I am confused I guess.