It's a personal line in the sand. I very much accepted being an alcoholic the last 25 yrs. or so while drinking. The whole trying to do it normal thing was over with in my 20's. Mine has been more of a "I'll just sneak in this one night/day of fun and get back on track". Once one has done that say, 3 times and not succeeded it should be a no-brainer. Full acceptance is I can't drink against my will. Giving my will and body to the seductive voice of addiction has been where it all goes wrong for me. I have decided no more research. My will is mine and will not give it away no matter what my monkey mind says.