Maia, that helped tremendously. Thank you for sharing it with me. It's all just so extremely painful and hurtful, but I do try to remind myself that it's the addiction doing all of this and not me, or the him I once knew.
I hate that he is the one thing that meant so much and that I couldn't fix this for him. Being in the medical field for so many years, I'm used to being able to 'fix' things. Not always by any means, but usually we can do something to make it better. But, the person that I loved so much, I could do nothing for....and that is a hard pill to swallow. Actually, I'm still choking on that pill, but I'm trying to get it down.