Ditto what Anna said. What have you added?
I'm willing to bet that drinking wasn't all it was cracked up to be if you joined here. Early on everything is new and mostly not a happy place. Until you start adding the joy back in gradually. From the AA promises: Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us-sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
Sometimes it is mostly "sometimes slowly." Growth is sometimes painful. This could be part of what you are going through. Hang in there.