irisgardens,
It sounds like you are centering on a nominal track and a positive vector.
We don't need sugarcoating here (a lot of empty calories)----but we DO appreciate the
real. "Perfect" people have never impressed me in the slightest. I know from long experience
that it takes but a nudge to set them all "wobbly" and astable. People who invest heavily in
'airs' pre-identify themselves as those who will fold quickly come high stress.
No, I prefer a little battle damage, or at least some scuffed paint. Some accuse me
of having a perfect life----but they have no idea of what I've had to overcome to get here.
The pro's say what you are feeling is normal---trust them.
Work on you. It sounds like you are, and doing a very good job of it.
The world can take care of itself---it did so very well long before we were here and
will do so very well long after we are gone.
Be grateful to be a part of it all....as I am.