That's understandable. Alcoholic or not, new people, places, things, routines are intimidating. I think for us its just extremely heightened. Every little step you make towards a sober life will give you confidence you never knew you had. In all honesty, the only thing terrifying to continue drinking. The end result is pure agony, embarrassment, pain, and most times extremely costly. Please see your doctor. Be 100% honest about what has been going on. Im glad you came here!