Welcome Peter! This is a great place to come. Any question you may have, there are lots of people that can relate and talk to. There is also a chat option if you want to talk to anyone online. It really helped me the first couple of months. Also there are some great stories of recovery that are really inspiring on a forum. I know that feeling of impending doom- it is intense at first but it does subside considerably over time. I've only been to AA once but I found the people to be really welcoming and supportive and willing to direct me with any questions I'd had.