Being in a relationship with an addict consumes so much of our energy, we forget what else is out there. I recently had lunch with a high school friend and her husband. It was enlightening to see the dynamic of a healthy relationship. The two love and support each other. Although no relationship is perfect, I forgot what a healthy relationship looked like. I finally saw that the relationship I had with my XABF was the exact opposite of healthy. I know I deserve better and accepting less than I deserve is unacceptable.
Don't lose hope that you will find love. If that's truly what you want it is out there and you can find it, you just have to be open to deserving better.