Hey folks...
thanks a lot for your responses and your support. Means a lot to me, very very much. So day one again...this is insanity at it's finest...my disabled sister just turned 18 and I can't remember half the night (we went out to a party with her to celebrate...). I hate what I've become so much...it seems almost unbearable. Well, I figure that there are only two ways about this crap. Continue the misery or quit for good. But the first days are so hard...I'm actually not new to this forum, I had posted in the summer of 2013, where I managed to get 3 and a half months of sobriety under my belt...****, sorry for rambling guys. I'm a desaster, emotional-wise.