please work on finding what brings you peace and allows you to feel what you want to. An addict depletes their bank and then begins to make withdrawals from everyone else. We became accustomed to giving them the 'help' that they needed. To be happy again, i discovered that it was okay to stop giving, that in fact, I 'must' stop or it would eventually kill me. Love will come along when you are ready but you may need time to heal and to rebuild who you are.