Thanks for the tips! I'm happy to be back and I will plan to use this as more of an outlet! JanieJ, thank you for the suggestion about the journal! I love writing but often forget to journal, I'll try it out!
I shouldn't say I don't have cravings, I do. I believe that my stubborness if one of my worst and best friends. When I'm committed and don't want to relapse, I am stubborn about even thinking about alcohol. However, when I'm in bad place, I'm also stubborn about changing my outlook so I'm more apt to give in. I'm just sad that I keep sacrificing these breakthroughs I have (18, 12 3 months etc is sooooo long compared to when I would drink almost everyday!) because I just don't care anymore or because it gets too hard.