Originally Posted by
Scottishbhoy 
I've ended many relationships due to my preference to drink solo over a weekend; I've lost jobs, even my licence through alcohol (many years ago). And I can count on one hand the amount if weekends I can remember being sober in the last 30 years.
The conclusion I have is that, whilst alcohol affects me differently from the average person that can take it or leave it
To be honest it doesn't sound like it's working that great for you. If, as you say "you can take it or leave it", this may be a great time in which to leave it alone. For many heavy drinkers get to the point in time where they no longer have that choice.
Maybe a test of the (self-will) is in order ?
Can you stay sober for a week ?
Or a month ?
MM